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Saturday, July 1st, 2006
3:40 pm	When it rains it Pours So everything in the house burns when it gets hot under the feet. Things have been coming against me, and it starts to get to me now. I am breathing though. Despite my recent drinking which I am not fond of and the fact that I have a few other areas that need to be dealt with I shall gain victory slowly but surely. This amazing opportunity with the leaders of both Palestine and Israel has now fallen through. They could not get visas for some of the students. How increadible that it has to happen one week after I buy my plane ticket. So now I will be in the middle east for three weeks with no plans. I can enterain myself though no worries. I plan on seeing Jordan, Petra and Wadi Rum. Plan on heading down into Egypt despite me being a single white woman. I should have fun nevertheless. It is so weird that this opportunity fell through because it was so evident that the Lord was completly behind this. In multiple ways of confirmation and still no follow through. So I am going and having fun. Now I have a problem with when I get depressed through situations I spend money. So I have purchased myself some nice wheels for my car and a great system that should be coming in the mail anyday. Good thing I work for a car lot and get great deals on my products. Life to top it off has shorted my much need check this week by about three hundred. Yet still I will breath and trust in the Lord cause it is His world and I choose it that way! Current Mood: Prepared (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 10th, 2006
11:14 am	Time and Time Again So what a few weeks it has been. I have been very studious, which was more challenging than I had anticipated. I have been in my law class where I happen to be the only woman. My teacher on the second day hands back a test to me and says, "I sure didn't expect this from you, no offense." So I set the curve with a 25 out of 25. I guess that started all the wonderful feelings I feel from my classmates and teacher everyday. Yes, I am a little bitter, but that is how the cookie crumbles. I have been really getting social lately. I went to a delegate dinner yesterday with the Russians. We went to a 5 star resturant and it was wonderful. I have never had so many courses in my life. Mostly the reason for this was the arms race we have with Russia and somewhere along the line the US government thinks dinner and money will somehow help the Russians from stopping their sells of nuclear weapons into the hands of "terrorists". I just wrote a research paper on the USA Patriot Act and why legal question that I awnsered in my bias kinda way was this, "Does the erosion of our personal freedoms create a breeding ground for dictatorship?" Well that is life this month! Also Sarah has really been struggling with all these lesbians coming out of the woodwork to my presence. Current Mood: busy (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 27th, 2006
3:08 pm	Admiration So despite the resistance I have openly displayed toward David, he has called five times this week. He is meeting me in two and half hours to accompany me to my church where we are having a specail speaker, a prophet. My father and I did a little chatting last night. He declared with tears in his eyes that if he could choose two daughters in the whole world his were the ones he would have. He said that I would be the one he would live with if he could live with anyone at all. I told him that is a lie. He said eveyone has things they need to work through, but I have nothing but admiration for you Sarah, and what you have been through. You see my father has always known things that should not have been known. Call it what you will, but I will call it a deep discernment. Looking into my father's eyes I know he knows the things I have done with my body and all else. Nevertheless, he looks at it through a perspective that few have. I have accomplished something that few have been able to do. He is aware of this and this alone is a satisfying thought for him. This man knows that sex, drugs, and murder are on a low list of problems in our world of humanity. One ex-addict to another! Current Mood: grateful (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 20th, 2006
2:07 pm	The Driven Human I find it interesting that the stuff we attempt to stay away from are the very things that we are literally driven to. I tell you that there is this doctor I mentioned briefly about in the last journal entry. Wow, I can not get her out of my head. I do not know what is going on. I am fortunate that she is not my doctor at the present moment, but she could appear again. She is a temp from Hyde Park and man oh man I can not explain how much she is on my mind. So anyways I will try to stop what my entire body is driven towards and push something that I might end up cutting short before I have begun. I meet David today for the first time and I am a little scared. Well we will see if it is possible for a woman like me to have similar feelings for a man instead of a woman. Current Mood: contemplative (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 17th, 2006
11:14 pm	Driven I haven't come up with any clues! Now that I have that said I will say that in the past year I have noticed an interesting concept with God concerning my dealings. I will admitt freely that I have this drive to certain women that just so happen to have what I would call a spirit of lesbianism in them. So over my year I have ran into what I will say is 4 women. Two a while ago and two very recently. Hmmm they appear in two's, is this something I should look into deeply, j/k. So I will freely admitt as well that I have what seems to be on uncontrollable fast track to serious stuff with these women. So ofcourse I notice when all I can do is think about it that something is in need. Well no matter how much I desire it and I am telling you it is like a junkie fixing for heroin kind of intense that inspite of this if I pray and ask God to rid me of this situation it works. No matter what I do and trust me I am a little devil that gets quite aggressive, but even despite my actions I pray that I would not, He listens. Like the doctor in physical therapy. Man I tell you this was intense and out of control and I prayed about it and today was the last time I am going to see her cause she happens to be a temp and is moving locations. There was this one girl who worked in our school's cafateria and I always eat alone and I would just watch her everyday when I ate. But I prayed cause I notice my behavior and He had just freed me from a deeply disturbing situation. The last time I saw her was the day I was going to give her my phone number. Some are easy and others are more miraculous, but all in all I have only concluded that 1 pray works, 2 we are not in control of everything, 3 we are not suppose to be in control of everything. God is good though I must admitt. The weird thing about my behavior is it really is uncontrollable. My mind and heart both now with out a shadow of a doubt many truths, such as God is better than this situation you want, it wouldn't even work out between you, really you just are drawn to her and do not want anything sexually yet the drive seems to imply otherwise, and many more. Crazy things roam this world wouldn't it be scary if all the demons that have dwelt in me or anyone for that matter could be seen. AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH I would get scared to go out or even look in the mirror cause those pretty little things are hardly friendly looking. (Comment on this)
Friday, May 12th, 2006
3:14 pm	Can I hear? So my days have become to busy to review even in a fast pased blurred kind of way. I am overwhelmed with lawyers and requirements from this and that. However it is friday and the stupidity of the human way is causing me to relax, which happens to include typing right now. I have been informed that I have been accepted along with 23 other students internationally to attend a Joshua Watchmen's School of Ministry oportunity this summer, after summer sessions are over of course. This will be an amazing oportunity that I am so extatic to be able to be a part of. Its focus is for future leaders and will be exposed to some of the top Arabic and Israeli leaders in the present world today. The classes I am taking right now are quite demanding. I guess this is what inspires a person like me, challenge. I have to go to physical therapy three times a week on top of everything. But I will end in an expression of how this little example is just an overall view of the life I have been given and the blessings I have received. I wrote out a nice little letter to give to people to be able to support me in this opportunity to go to Israel. I had it all written and had my roommate scan a picture that I just happened to have on me from when I was in Israel last. So she printed out the final project for me. My friend Jaime walked in who was visiting from Tampa and asked if I would make seven copies for her to give to other people. I looked online for any print shop in the wonderful small town I call Lakeland. Kinko's on Florida was the only store open at eight thirty, so I said sure we can stop by there on our way to dinner. So kinko's it was and when I got there the employee obviously was a tiny bit rude to me and my friend and to say the least was unhelpful. I assumption was we looked too much like lesbians. Anywho had some trouble figuring out all this technological stuff with the advances that seem to change overnight these days. Well I was going to pay with cash and right when I got to look I was like wow these are really expensive for color pictures. Jaime said hey do you want to try this card. It was a kinko's card that I assumed was her's. She said we could see if this has any money on it. So we stuck it in and it had twenty five dollars on it. So in the convo she announced that it was not her card and she had just picked it up from right by the machine. So needless to say life is a blessing even in the struggles I seem to face I just quickly tell the Lord, "I can not deal with this, please take this for me I am giving this to you." And you know everything seems to fall into order supernaturally. I recommend this principle highly!!!!! Current Mood: hopeful (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 6th, 2006
9:06 am	Better reactions in the same damn world The sick world I seem to exist in and even take part in consumes me in isolation. I thank the Lord for my discernment and boldness. I used to be considered wise in the world that loomed outside of the comfort of middle America's home. Now I believe I am closer to wise, but still containing the trusting nature of ignorance. A place that I lived before and saw only from a distance creeps into my realm of existance knocking on the front door. Different reactions and better handled, yes. Stupid and nieve still arrange themselves in the atmosphere of my existance. It is after finals now and my suitmates needed a ride to the Tampa airport at 5am. Well my motorcycle minded metal foot got us to the airport at 5:35. So I traveled 50 miles in a mater of minutes. Well all this meant was I reserved more time to get a nap in before I stated work today right about now, 9am. I decided to go down to the courtney campbell causeway which just so happens to be known for some sketchy activity, but has been one of my all time favorite places to sleep for the night. My mind wondered through all its junk and finally was able to get to sleep and suddenly a knock on the door. I was in REM sleep from my days of lacking it's needed rest and was disoriented to say the least. I noticed a man, but certain thoughts did not register. I opened the door and he began to talk. Thanks be to God he hit trigger words that sounded in the subconscious. These trigger words were don't be afraid and you sure are a pretty girl. I imediately say Oh I am not afraid but I am tired and I am sleeping. I shut the door as he tried for other phrases. He got in his car and I continued to be done with him and tried to get back to sleep. Probably about 3 minutes later still kind of out of it he knocks on the door again. This time I take off my blindfold and stare at him as he is grabing his pants. Low and be hold he is holding this massive thing he called his dick. I could not believe it. I was speechless. I slightly shook my head and told myself what in the world are you going to say. This thing no lie must have been down to his knees. He said I can not help that it is so long. I simply said are you done man in a tone to send a message. And he held his hand up as if to make a peace offering and got into his car and drove away. Now this effected the rest of my so called nap. I ended up just trying to get back to sleep now unnerved and restless. I even went throught the process of talking about this in my dream. I tell you I thought used car salesman where bad, but now I know they are still humane. It sucks to have the thoughts just pound in your head that you didn't even choose. It is always different to have those remaining thoughts on something you choose to let your eyes dwell on. I will just comment that I am just as in need of God as this man. As this man stood with his dick in his hands groping it all I could do was picture myself grabbing for a glock and pointing it at his jugular. I wasn't going for the kill I was going for the pouring out of blood like a waterfall. I watched the bullet pierce his neck and spew forth blood all over my driver's side window. Current Mood: nauseated (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 22nd, 2006
9:59 am	To be free I love the fact that things are impossible no matter how blessed or free we are from the trials and oppression of the world. yet certain things remain uneffected in our own environment. With this said I will say I hate how I come to work in a used car dealership and all the salesmen talk about all day long is them cheating on their wives and how their girl got that bounce back when hittin it from the back. Now I might be a woman sometimes I question with the fact that i am hear listening to this crap as if I were a man. Other result is this stuff stays in my head and visuals actually start to appear even with the quick wall of protection I imediately alarm into existence. I will just put it this way. I couldn't stop the fact I ran into a car. I wasn't too effected really. I got more pain pills (not that I need them to get addicted when I just got off them). I can not help the fact I picked up a guy with a two foot mohawk and covered in tatoos and asked him if he needed a ride. Most call my decisions stupid I call them covered in the blood. I do pray, I do ask the Lord for guidance, but i try to do what I would want done to me and usually that doesn't happen however sometimes I find grace and get it done. Life is good even when it is lonely, depressing, painful, and desolately black looking in the near future. I pray that I will be prepared for America's warning this year. I truely do not want to proclaim its demise but somethings are just not preventable even through prayer. That is just my theory. Current Mood: cynical (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 20th, 2006
11:50 am	Motorcycle Accident Okay so it is Thursday and has been since Monday at 4:40pm during rush hour that I have been in pain from flying through the air and landing on asphalt. I am amazingly alive after landing on my head and barely have scratches, just welts. So it is a huge miracle that I am alive and doing very well. I am very soar, but that is what narcotics are for. God is good and I spent 15hours in the trama center discovering no broken bones but a cyst on my uterus. So the gynocolgist says everything is okay and I will go back to check up on this cyst and see what I can do about it. Glad I got to know about it for free (on someone else's dollar). Current Mood: thankful (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 15th, 2006
7:01 am	I wonder if I am going to find him Okay some serious things have been taking place, and I believe I might be in the midst of the last days before I meet my husband. You know I almost married a man named David. Prayed and prayed for a year and a half and only came up with the thought that my husbands name was indeed David but wasn't this man. So this teacher of mine mentioned her son and I was interested but decided against it. Then a month later she quickly mentioned his name in a conversation and immediately I felt something like oh crap. On top of this my mother for the past year has been saying things that I am going to marry a man in the service. Well I agreed to meet him but I told the Lord I was too busy to go. He is stationed in Alabama and his parents only go up there about once a month and just so happens to be on the weekends whenever they go. I was determined not to leave work. So this weekend she mentioned something that he was coming down here. I was like holy crap now. I have added a holy to my experience. It turned out that he had to move barricks on his day off so it will not be this weekend that I meet him. However the near future seems like it is presenting itself. Only the Lord knows. I will be stubborn like always but obedience I am in a learning process. Here we go to the end of the world where we shall die and I doubt it will be in peace!!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: scared (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
12:15 am	The reality of the supernatural Most people believe in angels, but they forget about demons. I know both, unfortunately I know one much better than the other. It seems as of now that the demonic realm has physically been by my side for almost 10 years. What brings this up is a phone call that I just recieved. I know this voice, it is the exact same voice that called me almost one year ago. It sounds so creepy, undescribably disturbing. It knows more about me than I care to admitt. A year ago I thought it was some sick twisted person with one of those voice distorters. After this thing would call, becuase it is impossible to tell the gender, I would be disturbed by it. Mostly because it's origin is unknown to me and because it brought up stuff that no one knows not even I care to admitt, remember. Well a few people would say why do you talk on the phone 'just hang up'. No it is not that simple, in my opinion. Just felt that I should talk to put it simply. So it is dejavu that this voice is back again, and just like the first few calls it didn't speak much. I love however to talk when no one replys on the other end. After awhile it starts to make noise and I immediately identify those noises to the past phone calls a year prior. I asked if it was the same friend from back in the day, but it only repeats the same word over and over in a very distinct way 'hello'! Current Mood: nostalgic (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 8th, 2006
8:54 am	Sleep makes for happy people So I try so hard to sleep, but it is no avail. I laid in bed last night until I gave up and went back on the internet. I decided that global warming will kill us all before our time is out and gone, so after this it was sit-up time. Sit ups if anything will make you want to go to bed. After a hundred my heart started to hurt or somewhere around my heart so I stopped and prayed. I think it is funny that by the time I go to bed it is time to wake up and I do not want to wake up because I could actually sleep at that time. So a few other people are having this problem and they concluded that it is the time change. I am not convinced. So tomarrow this guy that is crazy about me has said he wants to go to church with me. I said no way that is no reason to go to church. That is a shakey foundation and I won't be a part of it. Well my mother said you better go and get him and bring him to church. "I used to do it all the time with no interest in them." well mother i am not you but I will bring him to church and on the way I hope to explain we are not compatible. Wish me God's blessing on my words and his comprehension of it. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, April 3rd, 2006
11:01 pm	life - It's all about how you look at it So I am still caught up now that I went out on this date. Yes I had a good time, but I am a busy cat. This guy obviously has had his eye on me and I will mention that he is 21. I do not know he is a nice guy, but his family situation isn't the best. Should I judge him cause his family. I do not know. Do I ask for too much when it comes to my mate. I do not know. Will it be okay. Probably I will pray and find out. P.S. Thought about selling my motorcycle today, someone offered a very nice price. But I sure wasn't thinking about it. I guess if the price hits the spot I will sell now that I have the most perfect car in all the world. YesSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS it is wonderful! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 2nd, 2006
9:34 pm	Too much temptation leads to Victory So I saw a man that I haven't seen in about 9 months. He took me out to Aragato's a nice Japanesse restaraunt. All the free liquor I wanted not to mention all the coke. But Sarah was a good Sarah and didn't bother in any of that. So I was able to leave without dirting my hands. The crazy thing about this situation is that I was so worried all week that I was going to smoke pot agian. This is a weakness. But you know he quit smoking (guess becuase he is doing too much coke). So the next day at work of course a billion people ask me out on a date (billion might be an exaggeration). So after the fifth one this guy comes in his name is Chris Potter. And he is almost ready to pay off his truck. He brought in his sister in law however and she drilled me that I should go out with them cause her brother is head over heals for me and can not stop talking about me for the past few months. I do not know what was coming out of my mouth but I said yes and oh my gosh I never say yes. I couldn't believe I said yes I NEVER SAY YES. I always get asked out ALWAYS. But I haven't been out on a date in years. So I went and I had fun and it lasted all night. However I will point out that I look so young that it really does a number on me. Who can believe that a 24year old looks 17. Frustrating at times but mostly thankful now of my youthfulness. Current Mood: shocked (Comment on this)
Friday, March 31st, 2006
7:23 am	What does one do with out a night of sleep to occupy the time? Well I am convinced an array of activities are nesessary for one to be content witht the fact of their inability to sleep. For me I get bored during the night of continous C.S. Lewis Theology and need some spice to my routine other than lets say the always appropriate work out (for the seeing self unsatisfaction plague). So I usually recommend washing the car oh my gosh I was so against using water for anything including watering your lawn but rather your vain car how could you. Yes I did and enjoyed doing it and plan to do it again. If you had my beautiful car you would too. Also try talking to yourself or the dog I happen to be house sitting for. Writing is always key in my book. Now I have never really been big into trying on different outfits and looking in the mirror, yes always of fan of looking in the mirror but not with material posessions in mind. Hey things change and I am in the midst of CHANGE! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 30th, 2006
8:59 pm	Blessings of Life Okay so first of all I will say the yes insomnia has been one of my many plagues however mostly it was a result of the many vices I take. Such as alcohol, meth, narcotics of any kind ie usually play a part in my lack of sleep. This however was an attack. But I will say that the Lord is my refuge. I will not stop believing this girl America yes me. So I have been listening to Matt Kerney, wow amazing yes comparable to Alix well opposite but just as good in my book only anointed not talented get it. Probably not. So I would also like to announce that I recieved a 98% on both test I took while fighting my battle of sleep. So the Lord is so good. Glory. I named my car that was given to me yesterday or the day before (they are all runing together) Gloria - glory in latin. Could have called her Sola Deo Gloria for the glory of God alone. But that doesn't apply with all the stuff i have been doing for here kind of is for the glory of Sarah Queen Sarah. Okay so I am listening to African music and am reminded of my sister who is presently stuck in Kenya and hasn't been able to find an empty plane to get back to the states. So here is for you dearest Danielle may all the joy be given to you this month as you touch the souls you are near. God Bless you with a double portion that He has surely blessed me with! Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 29th, 2006
10:32 pm	Insomnia for the grateful So this whole week I have spent praying that I could sleep, yet unable. At first I thought it was my excitment for the car I was about to be given by a lady from church. I can not believe it I have been praying for a car for a year and here it is now in my posession and that is not even the best part this car is perfect. I mean perfect. How can it be that a car was designed for me, but it is true and the Lord has placed it right in my lap I believe for being obedient. So now that I have the car and still can not sleep I figure it is because I am still insanely obsessed with this car. True but highly unlikely that it would effect my sleeping pattern in such a dramatic way. However it is possible. So yesterday I took some nighttime medicine which of course has 10% alcohol and rushes through my viens up and down to my toes. Well anyways it let me sleep. How exciting. A car and sleep. I wonder how I did on Intercultural Communication. No I know I such at the actual thing but the test I took in the class I probably aced along with the Theo II test which I took 48 hours and counting up and might have switched up some views between Calvin and Wesley, but lets hope it is 100%. Now on to a paper of why the Trinity is a stumbling block for the Montheistic religions (ie. Islam and Judaism). What excellent motives I have - hate. When I learn that all it takes to witness to the Islamic nations is love and excellent character. Oh great two of my best qualities that I continually put into practice along with my sarcasm which regularly jumps out at every moving object. Current Mood: drained (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 26th, 2006
11:23 am	The Height Of A Sober Queen So yesterday my head filled with thoughts from all places of wickedness. Some of the most absurd things I was processing in a quick manner. When flooded with options that sound appealing one questions their sanity. Thanks be to the Guardian of my sould for His placed wisdom in my time of need. I calculated that it has almost been 7 months. Ha I still have till the 4th of April for that. The thoughts of no one will know only you and God. And God looks past it all. Stupid Theology there. No I say it is not just this once. I have been given the perfect wisdom to know that one drink turns into a cycle of continual drinking until devestation or harsh punishment is brought. So amist the cloud of faulty thinking I refrained as I tried to study for my Intercultural communications test and Theology II test. At least I find the material enjoyable and this helps to fight off the wacky thinking of the enemy which seems to be able to turn the most absurdly horrible situation into a quite pleasing one in a matter of one's own warped reality of the battle of the mind. Current Mood: thankful (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 24th, 2006
9:33 pm	The Ultimate Fight Current mood: annoyed Category: Religion and Philosophy Saturday, November 19, 2005 Life in the withered and worn hands of a fatherless God? What does it entail? How many emotions are needed before we give up on breath? A smile to fade an unrational thought is a waste of muscle use! So how can you live in a world that both honors and dehumanizes women? Can someone find me some moderation because I need some guideance to this maze of reality that plagues my everyday surroundings. I feel hate toward the gender I have often dispised. I feel needed from them just the same (but I can counter this so do not bring this up in conversation). I want to know certain things that make up my gene pool and call it complete. How can I know the many whys that attack my mind and leave me unsettled in sleepless nights. Why this and why that. Can feelings truely help you grow? I just feel a little lost with all memories flooding in combining with a failed attempt to dull my senses! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
9:32 pm	Alone In A Foriegn World Current mood: contemplative Category: Travel and Places Tuesday, November 29, 2005 I stepped out into a muggy, foreign world with the odds against me. I arrived safely in Holland with the exception of a few bicycle parts shy of a happy beginning thanks to security checks. My thoughts were of anger, frustration, and confusion. I had forgotten all my research along with the keys to my bike lock. This was the start of a bicycle trip that would prove to be exhausting, terror filled, yet uplifting in adventure all at the same time. I remember trying to leave the mid-sized city of Pisa, Italy. I just could not for the life of me figure out how to find the only highway going east. I spent my first hour and a half circling around the city. I finally experienced enough frustration that I ended up taking my bicycle down the forbidden autostrada (freeway). After traveling fifteen kilometers through fast paced honking semi-trucks I found my first exit to the correct highway. Before I was in the clear, I had two motorcycle cops pull me over. They were polite and decided not to give me a two hundred and fifty euro ticket for my illegal choice. They asked where I was from, how old I was, and if riding a bike on national freeways was legal where I lived? With some hesitative answers I was free to continue on down toward the correct highway. I went on and left this period of mental exhaustion although my physical exhaustion would continue. France is a hilly region, and their roads are constructed over old military roads. Instead of switchbacks up a mountain, the roads went straight up the mountain. I became exhausted. Pushing myself through exhaustion I reached the Alps. Climbing the Alps taught me the meaning of exhaustion. I was desperate for a second wind, but there was no second wind. I couldn’t peddle anymore. The exhaustion only mounted into frustration as I was climbing the Italian operated section of Switzerland. The manic drivers were utterly ridiculous. On my way cruising down from the top of the Alps, I missed a turn and found myself on the forbidden autostada yet again. I had to go through a tunnel with nothing but two lanes of extremely fast cars. I did not even think about the danger. I just peddled faster. I finally found an exit to safety. Terror was always present during my time traveling through Nederland, France, Switzerland, Italy and Greece. It was two years after September 11th, 2001. Anti-Bush and anti-American propaganda littered the streets through out Europe, but more so in Thessalonica, Greece. While I was in this metropolitan college city huge riots were taking place. Fortunately, I did not look American. I was dressed in dirty stinky rags. Thessalonica was infested with stray animals. One night, after sun down I was surrounded by vicious, snarling dogs. They advanced and jumped towards me in an attempt to bite my neck. An invisible wall of protection assured my safety despite their continuous effort. My last night overseas in Athens, Greece, I found myself at two in the morning in a drug infested environment without an idea of how to return to my hotel. I got lost daily and learned to profile who most likely spoke English. I cut my words to a minimum by looking for an African. Africans are easy to spot in this country and usually know English. It fortunately helped me get headed in the right direction. Unfortunately I was still in need of help because of the confusing streets. I let a drunken man take me back to my hotel on his motor scooter. I just handed him my hotel card, because it had the address on it, and went with it. Lacking the ability to communicate was always a little terrifying. My trip started with two days of rain, hard exhausting climbs, and little food. Most days were filled with fear and frustration. For example, I encountered a bear face to face. I heard the wrestling of the bushes and thought I was in trouble. I feared the owner of the property where I was sleeping on. Much to my surprise, it was a black bear. It stayed around most of the night and growled like a hungry dog. The bear eventually lost interest and went on its way. As I traveled closer to the historical city of Rome, I noticed an increase of homicidal driving behavior. Despite the congested streets, the Romans always seemed to be in a massive hurry. Vespas are everywhere going in all directions with no apparent rules. No lanes in the roads caused erratic driving. I felt like I was participating in a Vespa NASCAR race. Well, while in this deadly traffic, a car was preparing to turn and accelerated as if to run right into me. I was not able to react, but the impact just knocked me physically down along with my pride. I found that some of the most miraculous works of God came out of some terrifying instances. It is so easy for your spirit to get low on a lonely trip when the enemy is lurking around. After arriving in the country of Greece, I was looking forward to going on the island of Crete before the waters became too choppy for routine travel. I bought a one euro ticket for my bicycle, a five euro ticket for me and my luggage, and headed to the port of Athens, called Piraeus. However there seemed to be a slight problem. There was very little English being communicated. I had not idea that my bike would be getting off without me in Athens. My luggage and I ended up in Piraeus. It was a miracle how I ended up with my bike four hours later without being able to communicate in their language. I fortunately had a student traveling next to me who was a woman my age named, Samantha. She had been blessed with the ability to attend a private school and had a heart to learn English. She loved music and most of what is played on the radio in Greece is old American music played in English. So she inquired of the train operator my concern about getting my bike off in Athens with out me. He assured Samantha that the bike would arrive in Piraeus. Even though the train operator did not speak any English, he was able to remember my bike, and discover where it was being held. I do believe that I had angels encamped around me. Would I put myself through an exhausting, terror filled adventure again? I probably would because the knowledge I gained outweighs all the suffering I went through. It was always the simple things that kept my sanity and gave my spirit encouragement. Simple things such as: always having food, and provided shelter, and protection. Fear consumed me, but the Lord showed up and comforted me. Having a place to rest my head at night was always worrisome even though night after night the Lord would provide adequately. It was wonderful to see firsthand all my essential needs being met time and time again. (Comment on this)